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Find Your Outlet

Like most people, I was usually the friend that everyone turns to talk to, release to, unload on with no real place to do so myself. Or if they weren’t doing that, people’s perception of you is usually that you are so strong, so put together, and always holding it together that its kind of hard to release or vent with a reputation or perception of such right? What people think about you feels better than what you’re actually feeling so you keep it to yourself. You continue being the strong, put together person that so many people think that you are and you continue to fake it until you make until you can’t... Until you don’t... I started this podcast as a way to just vent. It was my outlet. My baby. I never had any intentions on anyone ever really listening to it. I don’t put too much into promotion or sharing because it was my way to just release. I know some people comment about how short they are. How some people feel as if they are just having a casual conversation with someone the...
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Been Through More Than You Were Deserving Of

It’s a rainy day here and I’m on my lunch sitting in my car. I began thinking about a conversation that I was having with one of my clients and my sister. She is suffering from depression, and she told the team that no one just wakes up and says they want to kill themselves. She said that most people get to that point because they tried everything they knew to do, and nothing has worked. They’re tired. And there’s no use in talking to people because the real thought on their mind is "I want to die" and no one wants to hear that, so we meet them with “I’m good” instead. That blew my mind. And my sister asked me if I never thought of that as if it was so evident as she also suffers from depression and anxiety. And I told her yeaaa, but when you hear it, for some reason it hits differently. At a point where I thought about a world that would be better off without me, I just was tired of feeling. It felt too much to feel. It felt too hard to make it to the next day and as much as...
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Time Truly Heals

 Unedited: Today I am sitting in bed and I felt compelled to write about this metaphor, at least I think it's a metaphor for times when we are going through something that is so painful and can easily feel like there's no way of getting through it. It may be one that has already been stated before, or one that you may have heard before but as I thought about it, I felt like this is exactly what hurt feels like sometimes. This is the process of what it feels like when we're going through it. My daughter recently broke her elbow. She had surgery and had a cast on for like three weeks. After the three weeks passed, we went to the doctors so they could remove the cast and the rods. So, they removed everything, and it left her with a sore on her arm that was going to take some time to heal. So as I was thinking, in the beginning, it hurts like hell. At that moment, you think about times you didn't have the sore and it makes you feel a little resentful and sad. When you touch...
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